Currently I'm reading Andrew Bonar's biography of Robert Murray McCheyne. I'll give you a full book review once I'm actually finished it but I came across a challenging quote from his journal in regard to our eagerness to serve Christ in missionary work, such as Go Teams, in comparison to our service of him where He's placed us now, among our friends and family.
"Self-examination. Why is a missionary life so often an object of my thoughts. Is it simply for the love I bear to souls? Then why do I not show it more where I am? Souls are as precious here as in Burmah. Does the romance of the business not weigh anything with me? - the interest and esteem I would carry with me? - the nice journals and letters I should
write and recieve? ... Am I wholly deceiving my own heart? and have I not a spark of true missionary zeal?"
